Post soundtrack: Last Christmas by Wham
It’s Christmas, though nothing about this Christmas feels quite right.
I feel like a fricking WHAM song and that is so wrong on so many levels, do not get me wrong I fucking love WHAM, but when you identify with a WHAM Christmas song? Well that is pretty darn pathetic.
I am experiencing major SAD, seasonal affective disorder, because I’m dramatic that way and my new dosage of happy pills hasn’t kicked in yet. Oh yeah, I had to up my dosage, my old one doesn’t work anymore. . .in case that wasn’t obvious.
I miss him so terribly much, every single day, I guess holidays really ups the whole shabang of feeeelings. I won’t be flying down to spend New Year’s with him. I won’t be opening any Christmas presents from or his family and I didn’t shop any for him or his. It’s normal what I’m feeling for anyone going through this crap.
Anyhow I had enough confidence to tell him he is the biggest idiot I have ever met, because only an idiot would be dumb enough to let go of someone as wonderful as fantastic as me. I might love the guy to bits and he is the love of my life, but man is he a fucking idiot. Men, fucking idiots.
Gosh i sound angry, I’m not I swear, no no no. i don’t want to be the woman with the bitter angry blog…fuck.
Merry Christmas everyone.
